Ardee says (10:30 PM):
*Wifey... Can I ask you a question?
Wifey says (10:31 PM):
*o; yes
Ardee says (10:31 PM):
*I've been going through a lot of things in the last few days... My emotions have been up and down.. for many different reasons... I'm sad a lot lately...
Wifey says (10:33 PM):
*aww wifey :( had a feeling something was wrong cos ive not seen u around told hubby i been worried about you Hug
Ardee says (10:35 PM):
*For a few reasons... one being this month.. and Valentines coming up. Now.. its not so much Valentines it self that gets me down.. its the memory of what the day used to be.. Dave & I celebrated our Anni. on that day.. so i've been thinking about him a lot.. And I've been listening to this one song, that was ours... and it still effects me, deeply.. and it still means something.. I know, I paint Dave to be this asshole, because I bitch about the things he's done, and doing.. But in my heart, I still love him dearly... because I remember the good we shared... And a part of me feels I shouldn't. is that normal? he's hurt me worst than anyone in my life, and here i am. crying, because I miss him :/
Wifey says (10:37 PM):
*wifey i still cry over tony sometimes i gave my life to him for 7years so yes its normal even after what he did i still have days where i miss him Hug
Ardee says (10:39 PM):
*it just feels like I've gone crazy.. I know I've always loved him.. and I always said I'm always gonna... but this is just ridiculous..
Wifey says (10:40 PM):
*i do understand u fully i sometimes think after all what hes done why do i still even care but when u give ur life completly to someone u do always care no matter what they do too u
Ardee says (10:43 PM):
*I don't think anyone would understand. Everyone that knows Dave, hates him.. No one knew him the way i did... sure, we had problems. but he gave up a lot for me too.. he took good care of me. he was my best friend wifey ;z and i miss him
*I don't care about the relationship. I just miss my friend:(
Wifey says (10:56 PM):
*i do totally understand u wifey
*i guess when ur married u give more of urself to someone than if ur just in a relationship
Ardee says (11:02 PM):
*do we ever really let them go? people tell me to let him go, move on, I'm better off without him.. and maybe I am... But how do you let someone go?
Wifey says (11:04 PM):
*u do move on but they always have a piece of ur heart ... thats why i argue like crazy with tony if we speak i know if i dont i would let him close again and i cant do that
Ardee says (11:06 PM):
*maybe that's the problem Dave had... cause I thought maybe I was insane... but I seen the way he looked at me when we went out for dinner with the girls. I knew that look. and i thought i was just imagining it.. But I really think, he's doing all this, because he felt something again
Wifey says (11:06 PM):
*to hide it u make them think u hate them
Ardee says (11:09 PM):
*that's what I thought.. he's not stupid wifey... it ended because we were so wrong for each other with where we were in our lives. i made mistakes, and I've paid for them.. But i know he seen the changes :(
Wifey says (11:13 PM):
*everyone makes mistakes wifey its if people can be big enough to see past them
Ardee says (11:21 PM):
*I don't need him to forgive me anymore. I needed it so bad before... but now.. I don't need it.. i accepted long ago, we're over... but there's still this piece of me that thinks "What if things could be different" ... "What if we had a chance to rebuild everything" I promised myself, I would never get into that again. I wouldn't want to risk it.. But we were happy... & we loved each other dearly.. and even through the pain, and the hurt.. we always remained to love each other.. that says something...right? i mean.. I'm not wishing for him to show up and say "I love you" but... i dunno.. ya know what i mean? :S
Wifey says (11:25 PM):
*i do ... i wish that me and tony were not at each other throats b4 he started cheating he was the person i trusted most i woulda gave anything for him its that i miss ... there are 2 people i would do that for now and i not even met them
Ardee says (11:30 PM):
*what do you do when you miss him? because i still feel as if I shouldn't. I tell myself I need to move on, and start to live again. and i really don't know what stops me :/
Wifey says (11:32 PM):
*there is nothing u can do wifey ... i wish i could say there was missing someone is not a crime wifey u should let ur self then maybe you might not get so upset
*i used to punish my self for it but i dont anymore
Ardee says (11:37 PM):
*I feel as if i can't. so many people hate Dave.. and I feel.. after everything he's done. I should too.. I should be furious.. I should resent him for what he's done.. but I can't.. I feel sorry for him..
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